Gah you annoy me!

it upsets me :(
i never wanted things to be like this..
i never wanted to lose you.
i have a sickening feeling in my stomach because i
wana make things right but i'm scared it's too late..
it makes me sad how i may have to ignore you for good
now, but not by my choice.. by yours.. :(
i'm not sure if you hate me or dislike me..
i'm not sure if i mean anything at all to you now but if you
ever get the chance to read this.. i want you to know that
our friendship did mean something to me and i hate to act
 like nothings wrong if i'm around you.. or if i'm around Teri
 and you can't come over.. i think you know who you are 
but i don't expect anything from you. i just want to let you
know that i'm sorry and i wish things never had
to be like this :'(