just walking down to the dairy which is practically
just a street and a half away scares me. I feel like
because I was part of what happened that night,
that i'm out to get. I can't even leave my home with
out anybody. What kind of insecurity is that?
I get all these unimaginable thoughts that just bunch up
into my head and then I begin to get worried that maybe
there's somebody there watching or following me in
their car. It's such a scary feeling. All I can remember
from that night was just those same 4 guys, smoking,
and standing there around me. I've never felt
so unsafe in my life, the one time when i've felt like i've
really had no control over myself.
why didn't you help me? why was it just up to one person
to try and help me but not bothor thinking about what would
happen to him. Why couldn't you be the one to help me?
instead you just sat there telling me he deserved this and
that he's a prick and all these unthinkable names. And
now I have to suddenly let this go as if it's just a time
of a normal average day?. Well no, that was my time
that they fucked with and this isn't over. Whoever is
with them can fuck off I tell you! You will see one
day.
Fern Im only saying this because this is actully silly stuff. i talked to lukey today and he told me what you talked about. look those guys are not after you okae so you have nothing to be scared of or worried about okae. who they want is duane. Duane was in the wrong so that shit went down okae if he wasnt being such a coward and hiding behind you things would of been different they wernt targeting you. and i can asure you that they wont touch you i have talked to them and i dont even know why i even bothered to because i dont care remember funny that.
ReplyDeleteNo need to be smart Teri. That was completely irrelevant. Yes we had a little word for a couple of minutes, he hasn't yet doubted me or been nasty, he has been actually the nicest out of all of you, including the Mohrs. I don't despise him in any way no matter how he may feel about Duane ok. Yea, you guys don't like him. But he's my boyfriend, remember that Teri. Everything you say that's nasty about him is actually upsetting me. And I would prefer that you kept it to yourself or went up to him and talked to him personally about it instead of making me the owl and pass on what you say. Or if not that, then him find out through everybody else.
ReplyDeleteTroy instigaed it Teri. anyways, talk tomorrow.
holey shit fern troy wasnt the one that started treating people fern just because he was tawking to you. oh and yeah thanks soo much teri for tawking to those guys and making it clear not ta hurt me.
ReplyDeleteyes i am thankful teri. i forgot to write that in because i thought we were going to talk today..
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