Love lost is still love. It takes a different form, that’s all. You can’t see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it. Life has to end. Love doesn’t.

Mitch Albom

I would like to say that at the moment, this house hold is a hell of alot happier and calmer without you here. All of my anger is actually gone and I feel so much better not being in your presence.

"You don't need to always pretend to be strong,

there's no need to prove all the time that everything is going well,

you shouldn't be concerned about what other people are thinking,

cry if you need to,

it's good to cry out all your tears,

(because only then will you be able to smile again)."

The most selfish 1 letter word: I. Avoid it. The most satisfying 2 letter word: We. Use it. The most poisonous 3 letter word: Ego. Kill it. The most used 4 letter word: Love. Value it. The most pleasing 5 letter word: Smile. Keep it. The fastest spreading 6 letter word: Rumour. Ignore it. The hardest working 7 letter word: Success. Achieve it. The most enviable 8 letter word: Jealousy. Distance it. The most powerful 9 letter word: Knowledge. Acquire it. The most essential 10 letter word: Confidence. Trust it.

got away from my house for a night. stayed at teris and just bummed around. had alot of fun though ;)

your family home is meant to make you feel like you're safe, and that you can do what you want without anybody judging you. why is it that I don't feel like i'm safe and that I don't have my own rights and choices?

just smile and brush everything off;

there's no point in being down when you could just

act like nothings wrong

i hate it.

i hatehatehatehate weed!
I think it's one of the most discusting things you
can do! I think you have to be fucked in the head
to do it. I think there's no positive shit about it, it
smells discusting, it makes you discusting and you get
addicted to it. It's just something I reallyreally hate!

You tell me I can come back and stay..

but when I need you the most,

you just reject me

and tell me I can't.

here it is.

The day was going soo good, I got to see my friends and had heaps of "Happy Birthdays" from people. My mates made my 'normal day' at school, seem like a fairytale out of a book! But as usual, as soon as I go home, there's always just that one person that tries to turn my happiness into complete and utter shit. and it worked. My father managed to break the smile off my face and turn it into 'an upside down banana'. - get it, sarcasm. Still havn't recovered. He didn't want Duane over on my Birthday? said can't even get some privacy! Well it was my Birthday and he's my boyfriend, so I don't really get why the hell he can't!

So the night goes on and my Dad is verbal as always. Nothing ever seems to make him happy besides his discusting habbit! 'He tries to be smart and tells Duane he can't stay for tea..' as soon as they came home from Pakn Save with 2 cooked chickens, 2O rolls, 4 bags of chips and a 1O$ bag of lollies him & my Mum start to be nasty and say we don't have enough. that's when i yelled at them and told them to both get fucked! then i took off..

I didn't bothor coming inside until about 11, so i stayed outside for a couple of hours and kept to myself, despite my father and my mother trying to get me inside so they could go to bed and lock the door! I actually couldn't care less of what they wanted, they hurt my boyfriend and that's not ok. and yea, i do get really defensive, but most girlfriends would i presume.

So this is not really the full story but it was enough to get off my mind and place it somewhere where they can't read it. I'm happy with myself because ever since that one night I stuck up for myself, my father hasn't laid a finger on me at all and i'm 1OO%

ok.

Ok, so suddenly when your birthday is supposed to be

the best day, when really; mine was absolute shit!

Why do you have to be one person but then turn

around and be somebody completely different?

you annoy me! You act like you havn't done

anything wrong and you're not at fault. Well truth

is; you are. So stop the act to try and please both people

because it makes things worse so just stop.

She said Oi I love you like a 'Chicken Mr Trans pie', hot and steamy on the outside, extra juicy on the inside and tasty all over ;) mmmm

M Y   B I R T H D A Y   I N  
 3   M O R E   D A Y S   ;)
 

That gentle vibration that goes right down my stomach to the tip of my toes. That's the kind of feeling I get when I kiss you..

I just want to let you know that things aren't easy. I wish that life wouldn't be so difficult, especially if it's something that you really just want to be fixed straight away  :SI guess it's a major pain and something I need to fix with you. But it's ok, because i'm here for you, i'm here for anybody. Everyone deserves chances until they get it right, :)  i love to help x